my birthday is in less than two weeks. how can this be? why is it that when you’re little you anticipate birthdays months in advance and now it’s like – my birthday? already?

i have no idea what to do for my birthday – i don’t really feel like celebrating, since it just feels like another year where nothing has really happened…just sort of maintaining, you know? well, my job situation is a whole lot better, but other than that everything is pretty much the same. and i’m a year older. a year closer to…being…older. or something. i know that 24 isn’t old, by any stretch of the imagination, but i guess i always thought that by the time i was in my mid-twenties (ugh) i’d have things more figured out.

why don’t i have things more figured out?

update: i bought myself a new ipod for my birthday.

update update: i’m feeling much better now, btw. a passing bit of panic, that’s all.