feeling very restless lately. i’m going out more and hanging out with more friends and everything – more now than i have since college. but even so, i’m feeling vaguely dissatisfied. feeling a little depressed. i want more but i don’t know exactly what that ‘more’ is or where to find it or how to even start. at any given time i’m either incredibly stressed out or mind-numbingly bored. nothing fully engages me and my mind wanders all the time. it occurs to me that i haven’t had a real vacation – like taking a week or two to travel or go home – in a long time. small trips here and there, but nothing long enough to make the benefits of the trip outweigh the stress of travel and planning and missed work. i think i’m burning out. hopefully things will be better after the holidays.